IN AWE

I am seriously in AWE of Jesus.

I Suppose it has nothing to do with being completely unsure of where I am and what I am doing. When we are leaving, how we will get there. Financially un prepared for not only our trip, but life in general. Having absolutely no direction other than...

HIM

Seriously. After weeks of drowning in my sorrows I see the light yet again. I don't know what changed other than this over whelming peace stemming from just knowing Him. Just knowing His character. How He loves us. Oh how He loves us. He is so faithful. Just spending time with Him. How it refreshes my soul. My thirst is quinched yet again.

I will stop rambling, I just wanted to share in my excitment, and leave you with a song that has been the cry of my heart this past few days.

Okay, so one more song... I just can't get enough ;)

Playing Catch Up

Time has been flying by. This and that, this and that. July 1st already?! Where did spring go?

 Logan and I had a scary situation occer yesterday. Nora had gotten ahold of her piggy bank and started choking on a coin of some sort. Luckily she was able to swallow it, and after we had called the sqaud, headed to the emergancy room, and had a x-ray done, we realized it was successfully in her stomach, and it would just pass on through.

Emotions were every where yesterday, and boy does that wear you out! God is with us, and keeps Nora in His hands. I am SOOO thankful to be spending another day with Nora. Let us truely count our blessings and be thankful for each day.

Thank you Jesus for today! And for being able to enjoy another beautiful day with Nora Lane. Praise You!

He never fails.

Phew, it has been an exciting past few weeks. Stressing finances and me doubting our readiness for Oregon took a complete 180 degrees as God never fails to show me He is enough. After a disapointing visit to a few campers we thought were going to work Logan and I were left anxious and bummed. There had been a camper down the road that we were interested in for quite some time, but didn't have the courage to knock on their door and ask about it. After the series of unfortunate campers we had gotten to the point where we couldnt resist asking about this seemingly perfect oppertunity. Turns out the one we had our eyes on was not for sale, however the lady kindly informed us that her daughter would be willing to part with hers and they lived around the corner. We went to check it out right away and it turned out to be in beautiful shape! After realizing it was the best one we had seen yet, we asked how much they were looking to get out of it. He wasn't quite sure, and asked what we were willing to pay. Logan said, "I hate to hit you too low, but we had been looking at campers around $400 and $500." The man replied, "I'd be tickled to get $400 out of it, I'd take $300!" Logan and I were blown away, we had just looked at one valued at $600 and the frame was falling to pieces. We slept on it, and quickly called the next day, and towed her home. Although it was an amazing deal, and a perfect camper it was a bit too heavy for our CRV. We knew that it was not worth potentionally messing up our transmission just to pull a sweet camper behind us, we had to part with it. After looking on craiglist for quite some time, I knew the real value of this camper. It was definetly not $300... try anywhere from $850-$1200. This kind of thing dosn't happen very often, especially to us. haha. This has just been one of the ways God has continued to provide for us in the past few weeks.

This past Saturday, I received a telephone call from a lovely lady. She was inquiring about a sewing job. The whole thing is a surprise, so I won't go into detail. However, out of the blue, I have an opptunity to make some very decent money doing something that I anticipate to be very fun! And a great learning experiance. It couldn't have come at a better time! What an awesome oppertunity to help our Oregon fund ;) haha, seriously though, God is so good.

Although times can seem to be heading no where, and plans look like they won't happen. Life gets foggy, and time keeps passing on He is here. He has a plan, and as I surrender it to Him, and give Him the glory he deserves, He continues to bless and provide for my family and I.

I see You.

Lord,

Give me your eyes.

I know not what I can't see.

I see your beauty, I see your love, I see you faithfulness,

I see your glory, I see your peace, I see your mercy and grace surrounding me. 

I see our situation, and I don't see through it.

I suppose it's not my situation to have to see through,

 it's yours.

Give me your patience.

Give me your wisdom.

Give me your gentleness.

In my own fear, I come with dagars to the lamb.

What am I afraid of?

Give me your gentleness.

He's only a lamb.

Looking upon the aftermath, I could have..

Thank You for giving me your eyes.

Thank You for giving me your patience and wisdom.

Thank You for your gentleness.

I see You.

another door opens..

It seems as every time I get discouraged with my business, He provides a way of encouragement. In the past, it has been someone randomly interested in purchasing a doll or owl. Or a surprise etsy buyer. This week, He has opened a huge door for me! I will be looking into the details this week, and will let you all know if it ends up working out.. :) Even the oppertunity, whether or not it actually works out, has been such an encouragemnt and very inspiring!

Just another testimony of His faithfulness!

Our story..

As i was saying in my previous post.. what was once a tornado encapturing us, turned out to be one of the most beautiful times in my life. And glory to be Him, who made it all happen...



As I am coming back to my faith in Christ, just being in my situation has been a struggle. Having Nora, and living with Logan, not being married has all of a sudden, been a burden of my spirit. Not because I beleive I have to follow the law. Not because I felt condemed or less of a person... but because I knew marrying Logan was Gods will for my life, and not only that, but I knew how pleasing to Him it would be. And it became this burden, because I simply want to do all I can do to burn for Jesus. And this was a part of it.

We had been planning on getting married for a while now, however we kept putting it off for financial reasons, or this or that. Finally, I really felt led to take a step of faith. Logan and I have this date, that well, we kind of made up.. because neither one of us can recal when we first started dating, the exact day..the 17th of April was our best guess. For valentines day 2011 I decided to give Logan a "Save the Date" card to Logan for his own wedding, to be held on April 17th, 2011. He agreed.

We both wanted something small and intimate. Between him and I. As time went on, I kept having second guesses about the date. We were planning on going to Oregon in the summer, and I couldnt help but dream of a beautiful mountain wedding, if only we would just post-pone it one more time.. just until the summer. Immediately I had this unsettled feeling in my stomach. I decided, on a whim, to open my bible.. to see what it had to say about April 17th. April 17......(4/17) Call me crazy, but I randomly decided to look up some verses that were chapter 4 verse 17 (April 17th) I have been studying John recently.. so I decided to start there...

"The woman answered him, “I have no husband.” Jesus said to her, “You are right in saying, ‘I have no husband’" ----John 4:17

Wow. I was in schock. God had totally confirmed that date for me.

Soon after this, Logan had lost his job. I had found out about some random health stuff going on with myself. We were trying to plan for Oregon in the summer, but just kept getting set back in our planning. Things felt like a tornado all around, in the center of this tornado was Christ. He gave me peace and hope through what seemed as a discouraging time.

Logan and I went to get our marriage license, and it was pretty ironic, because there was actually a tornado warning. We almost couldnt get our license because everyone was heading to the basement. Luckily one precious lady, decided she would risk her life (haha) and stay upstairs to help get us set up.

Two weeks before the wedding, I think I have someone to marry us, and things planned. It falls out. This person can not do it anymore. Another dissapointment. A few days later, I may have someone else to marry us... didn't work out, another dissapointment. Things just kept not working out. There were issues between close family members throughout this time also.

A week before the wedding, I had NOTHING. Nothing planned, nothing ready. No idea who was marrying us, or where we were getting married. Or what we were doing, or wearing. As I gazed at the calander on sunday evening before I went to sleep..I was kind of freaking out.. seven days!!! To plan a whole wedding! Then I really felt God speak to my heart, and He said, " Kaela, if I can create this world, and all of the things on it, and in it in seven days, why couldn't I get you a wedding in seven days?" I went to bed that evening with such faith!

Sure enough the VERY NEXT DAY He provided someone to marry us, a beautiful place to get married, that I would have never even known about, someone to photograph our wedding, the finances to pay the lady to marry us, a lovely dinner afterwards, an evening out the night before the wedding.. and to top it off..A JOB FOR LOGAN.

Seriously, not even kidding, this all happened the very next day. I stand in awe of Him! I am reminded how He is all I need. When I have nothing, I have Him. Thank you Jesus!

tornado

This entire month that been pure crazyness. From Logan loosing his job, to us trying to move to Oregon, to personal goals and health stuff. I have this picture in my mind, of me standing in the center of this tonado, and having complete peace. No other peace than the peace that Christ has preciously given me. It may sound cleche', but it's more real now than it's ever been. There is so much more to this story, and I can't wait to share it with everyone. It blows my mind as I pursue what God has for me, and continue to have faith and really walk in His will for my life, how real and alive He is. How He provides, how He encourages, how He calms, how He knows what I need right when I need it, how He surprises, How he loves. How he does all of this for me.. who am I? How am I so special to deserve this? It is such an honor to simply believe.

You're Beautiful, Phil Wicham

I see Your face in every sunrise

The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes

The world awakens in the light of the day

I look up to the sky and say You're beautiful

I see Your power in the moonlit night

Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright

We are amazed in the light of the stars

It's all proclaiming who You areYou're beautiful, You're beautiful

I see you there hanging on a tree

You bled and then you died and then you rose again for me

Now you are sitting on Your heavenly throne

Soon we will be coming home

You're beautiful, you're beautiful

When we arrive at eternitys shore

Where death is just a memory and tears are no more

We'll enter in as the wedding bells ring

Your bride will come together and we'll sing

You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful